She’s Too Much

She’s tough, but she’s supportive.

She’s talkative, but she makes sense.

She’s sharp-tongued, but she also praises.

She shouts a lot, but she opens her ears.

She fights, but she’s fair.

She makes little money, but she’s never selfish.

She nags but only when it’s too much.

She can be quite but only when it’s just hurting.

She loves unconditionally, but she feels it’s not compensated.

She smiles, but she’s unsatisfied.

She laughs, but she’s weak.

She talks, but she’s not understood.

She gives, but she doesn’t take.

She gets belittled, but she reserves.

She may seem Merry, but she’s lonely.

She provides wholeheartedly, but she still gets criticized.

She can be a warden, but she can be a friend.

She is our home. She’s our mother. She’s everything.


Ma, you may not be understood most of the time, but we know you always do and say the best for all of us. We may not say it aloud, but we are always thankful for the small deeds, sacrifices, efforts, and unconditional loveyou gave to us. We’ll always try to get you mom. We love you, and we thank you. 

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She’s Too Much

She’s tough, but she’s supportive.

She’s talkative, but she makes sense.

She’s sharp-tongued, but she also praises.

She shouts a lot, but she opens her ears.

She fights, but she’s fair.

She makes little money, but she’s never selfish.

She nags but only when it’s too much.

She can be quite but only when it’s just hurting.

She loves unconditionally, but she feels it’s not compensated.

She smiles, but she’s unsatisfied.

She laughs, but she’s weak.

She talks, but she’s not understood.

She gives, but she doesn’t take.

She gets belittled, but she reserves.

She may seem Merry, but she’s lonely.

She provides wholeheartedly, but she still gets criticized.

She can be a warden, but she can be a friend.

She is our home. She’s our mother. She’s everything.


Ma, you may not be understood most of the time, but we know you always do and say the best for all of us. We may not say it aloud, but we are always thankful for the small deeds, sacrifices, efforts, and unconditional loveyou gave to us. We’ll always try to get you mom. We love you, and we thank you. 

Pain and Passion

There I was, thinking that I could never be able to get on the dance floor again then this happened. 

The past few days were the celebration for the “Am-among Festival”, the foundation day in our Bontoc town. There were numbers of activities everywhere in my town. One of said activity was a dance sport competition. John’s aunt forced us to join, but how could we if we know we weren’t going to win? It was a very long time since we got our feet on the dance floor, five years max. The both of us got so fat that it made people wonder what we ate to get this big. We had let ourselves go.

Honestly? It wasn’t all the forcing that lead us both into joining. There was the love for the lost part of ourselves. Personally, I was thrilled to join, but John was hesitant at first which lead to cancelling our names on the list. He changed his mind during the last days before the competition.

Apart from the weight gain, my siatica was one reason I couldn’t do what I love. Dancing is one, I have passion for dancing, we both do. Although, I was never a great dancer, I sure can pass for a pretty good one. I thought I never could dance again. Until three days ago, John and I participated on the dance sport competition for the Am-among festival. Again, it was a very long time since our last dance, very long time. Our bodies were still so stiff and fat. Regardless, we still poured our heart and sweat into practicing for only 3 days. With those three days, we only had an hour or two to rehearse because of our classes. Sometimes our schedules weren’t synced for free time so we had to skip some classes.

D-day, we got there and I thought “Wow, I think we’re the eldest pair here.” The age bracket for adults was 19-34. Don’t ask our age, but most of our competitors just turned 19. 

No sweat, we knew that we were just there to have fun.  We did. It was like free session of zumba. We didn’t even intend to win a prize but just for sake of fulfilling the wish of people concerned. We did sweat like pigs. LOL. 

The dances were Cha-cha, Rumba, Jive, Waltz, Tango, and Swing. 2 minutes each, ofcourse with the lack of practice and routine and the physical state, our steps were just so basic but our performance as people said was great. They gave us satisfying feedbacks.

John said that he would definitely keep on dancing so that he would be prepared for next year’s competition. 

Sciatica + body pain wise, it was all worth it. Second place? It just gave a great sign, we still got it! 

How about that? 

Compete Against The World

I just had the best day ever. At 3 o’clock noon, i managed to get online. I was out of luck since my pocket wifi ran out of load. Luckily, I still managed to open my messenger. There I was, opening messages and suddenly I thought of sending one to my sister, who was at that time in Taepei for the UNIVERSIADE. She was invited to respresent the Philippines therefore became part of the Philippine Team. UNIVERSIADE as I thought was just a sport event for different kinds of athletes. How silly I was. It stands for “UNIVERSITY” and “OLIMPIAD”. An international sport event for student/athletes aging 17-25. More intense than SEA and ASEAN games, the second to Olympics.

My sister, XENA HENDRA S. CHOMAPOY, was always so eager to compete in her sport. Eversince she laid her eyes on a bow, she was intrigued and now, from personal view, a pro. Not to boast, but despite of the price of loving that sport, she always did her best. 

The moment she recieved her invitation, my mother was so happy. I said to myself, “wow, an international athlete.” My mom always supported Xena. She was once an archer back when bow and arrow only  cost hardwork in making it. At present age, it actually costs a fortune, again, from my point of view. We don’t have that much money. My mom always borrows money from side to side to meet all of our needs. From the three of us, Me, Princess and Xena (dependent children) to her grandchildren. Although she is a government employee, it doesn’t cover all of us. She sells stuff to have additional income and provides whole-heartedly. My father does extend his support to his children although, not that far when in terms of financials in extracurricular activities. My mother on the other hand, provides even what she doesn’t have.

Going back, I guess I could say that after everything my mother went through to provide for my sister’s passion for archery, it paid off just by receiving that letter from FESSAP (FEDERATION OF SCHOOL SPORTS IN THE PHILIPPINES). Those un-ending spends on arrows and other equipments, the bow case alone had roughly cost 20,000 in peso. Again, we did not have that kind of money. (Even if we can manage to buy new items, we still could not meet the upgrades needed.) My mom worked her ass off to come-up with the money alone. 

Yesterday, A cherry on top of my day had just dropped. My sister reported that all the Philippine Team players were lost in the Archery event. I was shocked at first, but still emparted my comfort. I was already proud and so happy for her that she had the opportunity to see another world and be part of our family and our country’s representative. 

After all that, she sent something else.

Yup, she had a very great start according to this article. It made the headline in the online news. She defeated Poland’s Magdalena Smialkowska.6-2. 

What a pride of the family name, Bontoc her hometown, University of Cordillera her school and ofcourse the Philippines. 

In the end, she was defeated by Slovakia’s Alexandra Longova, an all-time olympian. 4-6. A close call by decision. She would have won if she had just released the last arrow, but she was distracted by the waters unexpectedly flowing down the falls of eson.

Regardless of her poor equipments and the lack of coaching, my sister still had broken grounds that shocked most of the athletes. 

It really is a great outcome. After all the hardwork. It still was paid fairly. 

I also have to point out that in the news articles, it said that my sister was from University of Cebu but in fact she is from the University of Cordillera. I guess the confusion started because they both use the acronym “UC”. 🙂

All thanks to God above. 

Below are references of the articles:

http://www.journal.com.ph/sports/archer-chomapoy-in-big-start-in-universiade

Archers right on target | Inquirer Sports

http://www.journal.com.ph/sports/archers-miss-mark

Getting old, Looking back

It’s 20 minutes past 10 o’clock. 6 hours from now would be the time I said hello to this world. That would make it 23 years ago. As I look back and evaluate my life, i cannot help to be thankful to God for the life and the blessings he bestowed upon me. 

I was not born rich, but I consider my mother and father’s love for me my wealth. My family. I may still be under their roof, but I’m home. I just can’t be far away from them. I may still be in school, but I’m dedicated. At some point, I have to pay my debt. I might not have the body and face of Barbie, but I’m loved by someone who thinks I’m more than enough. “you’re too much” he says. It was a compliment when he said it. I may have a sharp tongue which would make people hate and be disgusted by me, but I have friends who embrace those about me. I may not be a very good influence to my sisters, but I make sure they don’t follow me and take the wrong turns I took. 

so much do i have to be thankful for. 

another year, thank you Lord. 

Falling In Dance -“Second for my Carlisle”

Dear child,
I know it may seem early to tell you this, but I do not want you to miss out. My darling, how about I tell you a story? Let this be read to help you sleep at night. This is a story about a damsel always in distress and how he was saved by a hero. And the story goes…

Once upon a time, in a smoky village sheltered with towering mountains, there was a maiden named Liquannai, she’s tall, her hair is long as the noodle of spaghetti she likes to eat, and black as a raven’s feather. She’s funny and she’s friendly which is why she gained a lot of friends from a diverse class in her school. She enjoyed dancing and singing. She liked to share it with everyone, especially to children. 

There was one thing that blinded Liquannai. Everyone knew she was a captive of a big, bad troll who disguised himself as a good looking man and named himself with the “received” lingo over the walkie-talkie. A perfect name, as he did receive but never gave anything back to her. Without her knowledge, she was a mere prey. She was blinded by the notion of love until she gave him everything, even her soul. 
One day at school, Liquannai was requested to join a dance competition. She accepted right there and then. She practiced ‘til her foot wore off. Day and night, she kept rehearsing even without her partner which made people think she was crazy. She was that determined.

Unfortunately, on the day before the competition, her scaredy-cat partner decided to quit and bailed on her. She was devastated; she did not know what to do. Her friends tried helping her but they couldn’t find a partner in time. Desperate as she was, she approached some men she saw dancing like monkeys earlier that week to help her. 

“Hi, would one of you please help us with the dance competition and be Liquannai’s partner?” one friend asked.

“Us? We don’t know how to dance, we have two left feet.” one of the men said. Liquannai’s friends tried their best to make them say “yes”, but countless minutes later, they still aren’t persuaded.

“I promise we will win?” Liquannai got so desperate; she said something too good to happen. The men still didn’t say anything. 

As they were walking away, “Fine! Let’s go! It can’t be that difficult!” a superhero spoke. 

It was one of the two men. He was called Quadtsao. He had a strong looking face which made Liquannai think he’s always angry and too serious. He was tall; he had a bodacious body and had a roaring voice that would make everyone’s heart pound like a drum. But out of nowhere, he saved the day, he saved her.  He was her hero. Quadtsao didn’t know why he said “yes” but he knew it was the right thing to do which made Liquannai’s parents accept him like family.
The first time Liquannai’s hand touched Quadtsao’s, a weird sensation built up. A magnet was pulling them closer together and a weird energy was passing through their bodies like electricity. Though, Liquannai was attached to the troll, she had no words about what she was feeling but her heart begun to connect with Quadtsao as she felt warmth and safety. Thankfully, even though they only had hours to rehearse, each of them poured their heart out and so, they won! 

After the competition,  Liquannai and Quadtsao returned to their different lives. Without any word resulted from faintheartedness, they went their separate ways.  

Liquannai returned to the way she was, waiting, longing, needing, bleeding, suffering, and blindly loving the troll she thought who loved her back.  People might see Liquannai with just pure joy and fun but deep inside, she was hanging by a thread.  The troll really got her heart on a painful, thorny leash that made her bleed and cry every night.  

After many months,   Liquannai and Quadtsao met again by fate. They shared stories about their lives, they laugh, they sympathize and they got very close, too close which made people think they were together.  They became friends, good friends.  Quadtsao learned a lot about Liquannai and he became her crying shoulder and sort of her guardian angel.  There was no separating them, except of course, the troll who kept on breaking her heart and making her feel worthless and empty.  

After she met Quadtsao, her world just brightened up.  It colored things how they should be colored.  It opened her eyes. The gold looking people turned to mere stones, the white colored shirt on Liquannai turned to the colors of the rainbow, and the troll is almost unmasked. 

With Liquannai constantly crying over the troll, Quadtsao finally got the courage to say something.  

“Why do you keep hurting yourself?  , “There are people who would be lucky to have you.”, “You deserve better.”, and finally, “JUST LEAVE HIM. ” 

Hearing those words from her friend caused her confusion.  Is he falling for her?  Is she falling for him?  She didn’t know what to make mean of what he was telling, as she was certain that she was ugly and that no one would want her. 

Day after day, when they are with each other,  Quadtsao made Liquannai feel special.  He told her things no one would dare talk about, even with friends as Liquannai also did.  She’s always lit up when she was with him and always with a dog’s smile.  She never said anything to the troll, but she knew that the troll is watching and hoping that he realizes that he is already on thin ice and would change his ways. 

One night, a message from a bird came.  It tweeted as it said, 

“I know I said you deserve someone better, but that someone could be me.  I know it might break our friendship but I just have the need to be with you more and I have to come up front with my feelings.  I love you. “

It turned out; the bird was talking to Liquannai’s older sister.  

She replied, “If you really love my sister, you can wait.  Both of you still have a long journey and if you were fated to be together, you will.  You just have to be patient, my boy. “The bird left with the message but didn’t return any reply. 

In the morning,  Liquannai heard the news from last night, she was wondering how she would face Quadtsao but turned out, Quadtsao still hasn’t given up.  He still did his best to court her regardless of having the troll behind her back.  He would let her hear music that would reflect how he feels about her and she couldn’t do anything as she lacks the courage to admit what she felt too.  She was scared.  

Many days passed, Quadtsao felt a little hopeless.  He could not get the girl he loved to be with him.  He went away from her, in the land of strawberries and a place where the weather makes you want to wear a sweater.  He left.

Liquannai, so sad and left with the troll felt unsafe.  She missed her friend but couldn’t get him to come home.  She had no choice but to endure the pain and longing.  For many weeks, she finally heard from him. He still tries to get her to say “yes, I’m yours.”, but Liquannai wanted him to come home first.  He did not.  

One day, Liquannai finally had the courage to talk back to the troll.  She got the troll very angry and made him want to set her free. He did.  At last,  Liquannai was free. With Quadtsao not around, she only got her girlfriends to talk to.  They were supportive and relieved of the news. After many days,  Quadtsao came back and went to Liquannai.  He learned the news and was happy for her.  Now, he finally has the spotlight.  He continued his business with her. Liquannai warned Quadtsao her many flaws, but it just made Quadtsao love her even more. 

On the 2nd night of the 6th month, Liquannai and Quadtsao went out for treats where they make sweets out of flour. In the middle of the conversation, the topic of being together came up. Quadtsao still persistent proposed to Liquannai, the conversation of it took a long time where each one made promises to each other. Finally, she said “YES.”

They were happy because at last, they were together.  They continued to study and still be with each other.  But you have to understand that love is not all rainbows and cupcakes, it is also sacrifice. 

After 1,095 days,  Liquannai had to get away.  She needed a break from school and from stress that their relationship is building up, so she left for the place of strawberries.  She stayed there for a long time and left Quadtsao in the beauteous valley they live in. She landed a job which made Quadtsao go back and forth to visit her until both of them just worn-out.  He didn’t visit her anymore and she didn’t go home.  Finally she decided to quit her job and go back home to continue her studies.  After she got back, it was unfortunate as it was time for Quadtsao to leave.  He left for a place far away.  A place where they pickle cabbages, making it red, spicy and calling it kimchi.  They were separated for a long time. 

Missing her, Quadtsao decided to go back home.  And they were inseparable ever since. 

You might think that it all turned happily ever after, do you my dear?  Yes it did, but not all the time.  There were many obstacles, trials and problems they have to face.  Society was one; they were once called too young to be showing off.  They also had to face the troll again, he wanted to have Liquannai back, but she did not return to him.  There was also the Aswang, who was always tailing on Quadtsao and wanted to turn him like her and suck Liquannai dry.  There was also the family, who never stopped trying to protect Liquannai.  They fought for their love.  They also made a lot of mistakes saving it.  They broke up many times,  because of pride,  jealousy,  greed,  misunderstanding,  too much needs,  lies,  attitude,  respect,  you name it all.  They’ve been through all of those, in the end they learned that love, forgiveness and God always conquers all. For all of this, their bond and their love grew stronger. 

So they lived happily, they knew better, they forgive, they sacrifice and they love. They never forgot the first time they met where the both of them started to live, love and be happy. But you know what my child, the only thing most memorable and most precious to Liquannai and Quadtsao was the moment they became parents because of you.